Wednesday, January 28, 2004
Well what a shitty and trying past few weeks. My whole family is pretty down, but it was inevitable. Just a matter of time. On Saturday my Nanna (grandmother) died. She'd had an operation to remove a brain tumour (which turned out to be cancerous, one of the worst kind) a fews earlier. It's such a fucken pain when lovely people die from disease. I can't remember I time when I ever didn't a smile on her face. She was doing really good for a week or so after the op...but then she just went downhill all of a sudden. Anyways I thought I might 'vent' myself here. Apologees if you don't think it is appropriate.
I was talking to a colleague of mine who also had a grandmother die from tumours. He said that his grandmother could not talk or move, but 2 hours before she died she sat up and said "grandad is here". Grandad being what she called her husband, as their grandchildren did. Which was kind of weird in a sense. My nanna couldn't move much (only one arm) and couldn't talk either and was like that in hospital for 2 weeks. Just lying there like a fucking vegetable. No way to live if you ask me. The thing that I found weird is that she stayed alive until everyone (being relatives and close friends) visited her atleast once in the hospital. Like, you must know when you are dying eh? And I was talking to a few hospital staff who said that they've known alot of dying people to "hang on" until they've seen everyone. So yeah....I'm just glad she'd went peacefully in her sleep.
Anyways, the funeral is tomorrow. That should suck to say the least. It will be the first funeral I've ever been to.. so that will be interesting. If you've read this, thanks for listening. =)